there's nobody singing to me.

The walls of my home feels so foreign now. They white-washed it. So, bye warm walls. Hmmm. I missed the dirty warm walls. Makes everything seem so homely. Now I feel so intimidated by these 4, no or more white walls. They're so BLANK and EMPTY. Hope they quickly coat on the mellow yellow paint 'cause I can't stand the emptiness. I can't wait for my gray walls(: Speaking of paint, my house looks more like a warzone now. And it reeks of paint, duh.

I went for a stroll after I got down the bus, again. I walked down the empty street, and underneath orange street lights glimmering through the canopy of the rustling leaves. I lay on the sit-up benches, and looked at sky. It was so clear today, and just decided to sit around and star-gazed though there's not a lot of stars to see. Runaway world, that's my favourite place to be. Drowning in heavy drumbeats and strummings, and there's people singing to me.. Hmmhmmhmm.

Actually I feel very happy today(: I feel more than contented, despite the fact I was frustrated over some stuff at 1st Avenue during assessment today. Whatever lar huh, bygones be by gones. I enjoyed tending the Mama Shop. Looks like everyone enjoyed 'Ticum Ticum' huh? Lol. Damn funny whenever anyone picked the 'Thank You. Please try again' paper. LOL. Then they get so bahhhbahhhblahhh and then they pay more to try get something. Lol, and when they won a packet of sweets finally, they just go DIAO. They're facial expression, PRICELESS. LOL. Sales was not bad too, but I hate the fact that I still have to do float count and the other non-cashering/pos stuff when we already installed a pos system in 1st Avenue?! ZZZ. What the heck huh? LOL. Hmm. I hate to brag, lol, but I got praised by hoho for being so enthusiastic. HHAHA. (: And that T01 was really supportive and encouraging throughout the whole assessment today. hoho loves T01(: Hurrays! I saw Roche after class today too. LOL he came by and chatted with jacq and I. And guessed what I swear he made me the happiest girl today please. LOL, he said I have lost weight!!! LOL YAY. ROCHE IS LOVE HAHA. Ran from LT for Bguides to Bandroom for dinner and rehersal. LOL. Damn freaking hungry and that was the practically the first meal for the day! BOY! the food was good, maybe 'cause I was too hungry. Hmmm thanks darling Seehua for reserving dinner for the hungry girl. LOL (:

Rehersal yadah, and went for desserts opposite school with Qinghui and Seehua. We spilled our hearts out at emo playground. Hmm, that place is filled with my sorrows, pain and joy. My band memories lies within this plains. Next semester might be a different story, 'cause most of them are graduating from poly. Hmm)): Will I still even be in band..? Who knows. Good night, finished being happy. I'm going to drown in pain.

I'm a creep, I'm a loser.
Can't you see I can't feign it anymore.
I'm already losing my all.
Every single truth I hold still hurts.
Who ever told you the hurt you sold can never be supressed.
I'm only human, and I still do HURT.
Only etched with marks..
I FEEL. I feel the pain..
You know what, only you can stop me now.
But now, how.

I admit, I'm such a imbecile for loving you, do you even know that.
I bet you knew.
God knows why I'm still hanging on.
Almost TWO years, never did I once try to just move along.
Every time I just spent my time here crying my heart out to you.
Is this even worth, when you don't even care.
Call me stpid.
Call me dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.
A dumbfuck.
I'm am such an imbecile really.
I'm just waiting for naught.

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
You coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what i've gotta face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face

It will soon be over, right silly? : )